רהע Resh Hey Ayin says:
You either gonna own your ish, or you gonna feel like your ish owns your soul… all week long….
I woke up in such a desperate mood that even my coffee smelled like defeat this morning. And for no reason, too. In fact, I launched a successful webinar dedicated to the Dark Mother Kali, this weekend, and set in an embodied Quimbanda ceremony with my partner, last night, so the AM should have been dope….
It felt anything but, though…
Luckily, I allowed myself to sit with my feels. One of the ways I attend to my emotions is journaling in a constructive way, using a Desire Map Journal, by Danielle LaPorte. Tears followed the emotional words on the page. Snot got smeared on the boyfriend’s t-shirt. Articulating my emotional soup was very useful. Hugs helped a lot too.
Eventually, when my mind became less retrospective, and my eyes more focused, I noticed a truth bomb exploding in a small font, at the bottom of the page, saying: “Believe what you want – because what you believe will influence your future.” Danielle LaPorte
Finally, I was ready to meditate on the Name, Resh Hey Ain. Reading, Orna Ben-Shishan’s booklet that accompanies the deck, aa similar line struck a cord: “Your reaction to events creates your reality: Keep moving forward and never look back…“
In other words, this week we’re not only likely to experience a rising of dark emotions; but they will also be flavored with spiritual defeat, and seasoned with emotional disorientation. Nonetheless, we must strive beyond the feeling of helplessness. It’s our psycho-spiritual task to work through it, dispelling the negative. We are called to be inspired by this Divine Vibration, and use it as medicine that uplifts from victimhood, to make us into badass, reality-shapers and foxy, momentum-crafters.
So, unless you got a time machine in your basement, please stop beating yourself up over your past. At the same time, Resh Hey Ain is here, reminding that trying to bite into an unripe future, will result in a solar plexus flue.
It might sound overwhelming, but seriously, all you gotta do is close your eyes, take a deep breath, and visualize a perfect reality in full color and an epic soundtrack — because this week’s draw makes it clear that you are the boss of your future.