I don’t know how about you, but this Mercury Retrograde has been especially brutal for me. I placed orders online that have disappeared into thin air, booked readings with clients, but a mistyped phone number, and had to redo obnoxiously simple tasks over and over again. My life felt like a broken record, and I couldn’t get a grip or change the tune. Emotionally it didn’t feel like a picnic either!
Finally Mercograde was over, concluding ceremoniously with an electrifying Lunar Eclipse and a Full Moon in Gemini — oh boy! I feel like all the tension buildup of the past three weeks has finally hit the fan. I definitely feel more clarity, but now all this emotional plaque is right in front of my eyes and I know I have to deal with it. Clearly, denial ain’t going to offer its velvety and familiar numbness this time. I really have to deal with some major personal funk.
After speaking with many friends and my regular sitters, I realize that this Mercury Retrograde was hard on many. Relationships in particular were examined under a merciless magnifying glass, while dysfunctionality floated to the surface without reservation.
So today, as I am beginning to feel a bit more sane, I pulled a few cards to get a global advice regarding the proper psycho-spiritual approach to the upheaval that is plaguing our lives following this recent astrological phenomena.
The cards I drew are the Queen of Cups (from Alexander Daniloff’s gorgeous deck), followed by the 2 of Clubs, 5 of Diamonds, and the King of Hearts (made by Alexander Erko’s). For me, the draw mirrored the raw emotional vibration all around that feel as comfortable as exposed nerves during a root canal procedure. But the Queen who had a hard time to keep all her bubbles together recently, and who is usually an expert par excellence in the watery depths of the feelings department, is finally able to integrate all of the emotional memory without drowning herself in it. She can work through it, bringing a much needed healing. In this deck in particular, she actually looks at the reader with a post-meditation gaze. She’s finally ready to act!
The playing cards flanking the Queen prove that the feminine principal doesn’t feel or chooses to be alone anymore (as she felt in the past few weeks). She is ready to connect with a male counterpart — offering him the gift of equal partnership. He accepts his help in dealing with the issues coming up during the past retrograde. Shall we dance?, she asks.
Finally, there is a strong underlying karmic essence to all this emotional scab-picking that needs to happen. And this enigmatic Queen reminds us that there are patches of healthy, smooth skin underneath it all, waiting to be loved as soon as the wounds are properly cleansed and dressed.
The time has come for real healing to start! Please be gentle with yourselves!